cold spot

1 Aug

I was browsing my twitter timeline late this afternoon and stumbled on a tweet asking whether anyone has ever felt that ‘cold spot’ on the chest.

Damn! How can anyone be feeling the very same thing that I am feeling right now. I tweeted back saying that it hurts more to feel it, and not know what the hell is causing it. I guess I was (am), again, thinking aloud.

Although I have been trying to find the reason why I feel like this, I end up being caught up in too many thoughts. To explain how this feeling works, it’s like waking up in the morning and being ready for the day – then suddenly while sipping coffee you just realize something’s wrong. Was it my bed? Or perhaps I over slept? Perhaps it’s the dawning day, the hustle-bustle of work? Things would pour, and then, suddenly you just loose enthusiasm. One thing would be sure after that, the day’s going to be, just like the other, boring. So I’d blame my playlist, or my financial sitch, or the fact that I got dumped or the dream that I am too fearful I may not turn into a reality.  With that strange stinger inside, I become neurotic. And so the day passes, just like that.

These are not so common days, but recently it has become common to me.

I try to go out and talk with friends but then, nothing change. I would get the high but it would not last that long. I would find myself with that stinger soon again. Fuck!

I am starting to conclude though, that a cold spot is a feeling we feel after someone vacates a spot in our heart. In retrospect now, I guess I have only felt like this during the times that I was left behind by a friend, a lover, or by just anybody significant.

Shit! That’s it!

A cold spot is a place in our heart that somebody once used to stay at.

(sigh)

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5 Responses to “cold spot”

  1. Olivr August 2, 2012 at 1:56 am #

    That feeling sucks.

  2. nikki August 26, 2012 at 3:36 pm #

    hahah.. yeah.. it sucks!!!! BIGTYM!!! REALLY!

    • behindtheseshades August 28, 2012 at 12:01 pm #

      kanina at the comment notifications your photo was not seen, but the way you said your comment made me think it’s you. i really is you. hehhe. and yah, i know you know how this feeling feels. though di ko lang alam if you really are also open for my remedy. hehhe. (allowing someone, again, to occupy the vacated spot)

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